There are certain things in life that need a lot of time until you are finally able to talk about them. With talking about these things I mean opening up about them completely. I needed to grow up first, get to know myself and be the real me before I could share this with anyone but my parents or closest friends. I can’t even tell if I ever really and seriously talked about it. Mostly I hid behind jokes because I didn’t know how to deal with it myself.